You awaken, only to find that a blanket of snow has clouded your mind. The fear and the cold has gripped your bones. There's none around, you're all alone, the emptiness you feel, the gloom, and the despair. Where are your friends, do they even care? The darkness of night has made it very clear that demons are present, Satan is near. You look all around you in search for some light; the sky is so dark from the fear and the fright. You're cold to the bone, can't find warmth, There's no way. Your body is trembling from the enemies play. What do you do? Which way do you turn? Can anyone help me? No, is the answer, that's what I discern. What can I do, for I am naked and bare, how can I get out, does anyone care? The demons, they torment my thoughts and my mind, they cause me to see things and make me blind. I want to come out, but I don't know which way, I cannot speak, tell me what can I say.

            Oh my Father, listen to me as I scream out to you. Oh my God please help me, show me, can any of this be true? What have I done? What have I allowed to come in? Oh, could I ever be free from the addiction and sin? What can I do Lord, Oh what do I say? Can you help me, is there a way? I'm naked and cold, left in the night. Where are my friends? They're out of my sight. I'm scared, I'm lonely, and where can I go? Is there an answer does anyone know? I prayed to my Father that this cup be erased, never the less your will be done, strengthen me for what I must face, the tormenters, tormented my body and mind. I looked for comfort; there was none I could find. My cross I embraced as the pain ripped through my skin, the forces of darkness piercing within.

              There was no relief, within or without, my thoughts truly bound by pain, fear and doubt, but a word I could not utter, could not even shout. Fear gripped my tongue I could not speak a word, so bound by the torment, like nothing you heard. I hang there by nails as my body collapses within, dead weight begins to grip me as I take all the sin, the reality of life was replaced by despair, only mocking and cursing dwelled with me there. My nerves were damaged as I hang there shaking, pain pierced through my muscles as your pain I kept taking. The spasms and the seizures overtook my system, yet I could not cry out, there was no one to listen, great stress on my heart I clearly faced, from great loss of blood left it beating only a trace.

            You see I could not die until I faced it all, for I chose to do this, this was my call, and no I could not die, until I straightened mans fall. My appendix did burst, my kidneys did fail, my liver, no function, left me lifeless and pale. My brain became damaged from the beatings I took; no one would know me for this hideous look. When I bare all the weight of the world, all the sin, only then was it finished, only then could I win. The moment I died the veil rent in two, revealing the Holy of Holies to the world and to you, it revealed there would be no separation between a Father and son. It revealed complete victory in the face of the enemy. I beat him, I won. Yes me, Jesus your Savior, God's only Son. You see there's nothing you'll go through that I have not seen, the times my mind cried out let it be only a dream, the damage I took on my person and face, left me to know only despair and disgrace.

            I knew the feeling of being out of place, finding no comfort, not even a trace. So do not ever think that you're left alone, no matter what you face. Remember the veil rent in two revealing the throne, where I sit right by my Father with my blood for you, to atone. I pray for you always both day and night that my Father sustain thee from the tormenters' fright. I pray for your strength and peace in your mind, just cry out from my blood and watch them scatter that bind. You see you must claim your freedom through the scars that I bare; the holes through my skull freed your mind from despair. Take this word to the world and show them I care. Show them that everything they will ever face, that I have already been there.